16 February, 2016

Ramblings After a Year.

'The greatest learning from Cancer is the ability to withstand whatever happens in life afterwards one survives the ordeal of Chemotherapy and Radiation'.

Frankly.
Cancer is not a big thing it is made to be.
It is simply scary since we haven't really been to develop a cure for it. It is still as mysterious and haunting as the vastness of the Universe and the depth of the Black Hole. We are afraid of Cancer as we are afraid of the dark. Simply because we know so little about it. At one time even having a minor fever and cold was scary, since it couldn't be cured. Now its just a matter of having a paracetamol or antibiotics. But what do you do with a disease that haunts you? What do you do with cells with a mind of its own and the ability to grow faster than you blink your eye? Even with the recent developments in this field, its difficult to detect and therefore more difficult to cure.

What makes Cancer a even scarier disease is the inability of the human body to withstand its attack. Chemotherapy along with its side effects is not something everyone is able to withstand and come out from. The other side to it is also what society generally has made Cancer out to be. You get detected with Cancer and everyone around you will start start talking in whispers. Are you dying? Will you make it? What stage is it? The sweet talk and the comfortable words that start pouring in. Relatives you have never seen before come to visit. They'll make you feel like you are half dead already. But if you 'survive' it, then you become a beacon of strength, resilience and braveness. You become the talk of the family, and showcased to the whole family about how you 'survived it all'. That you came close to death and managed to escape it.

Cancer does not mean Death.
It just means a struggle.
A struggle of not only the body, but also and most importantly, of the mind.

I am tired of people calling me brave for having been able to withstand the disease.
I was simply lucky. I have a fantastic family. Amazing friends. An encouraging environment.
And most importantly, a team of dedicated and caring Doctors. I was able to stay strong because of the environment I was in.
Cancer is not a fight for the patient itself.
Its a fight for the entire family and everyone around the patient.

During such a time, it becomes vital for the patient to be supported. It becomes important for Global Consciousness to kick in. For positive vibes, thoughts and energies to flow in. For the patient to be one with her own inner strength and ability to stay strong and focused. The fight for Cancer, or or any disease depends a lot of a person's mental strength or desire to overcome the disease. Most cases go downhill since the patient loses the will or mental strength to fight it. Which is why the cases that start going downhill are that of babies or of the elderly. Children lack the physical strength to withstand the disease and the elderly just give up hope.

Every disease or surgery is a struggle for the person who is undergoing it. What makes the difference in every case, whether it be Cancer, heart surgery, knee fracture or a nose block is the building up of and creating a fort around oneself: a fort of positive thoughts, vibes and attitudes. Energies work and travel and its important to understand how to work around them (personally, I feel it can travel across continents too). It is important to stay strong for everything, whether its something as scary as Cancer or as small as a nose block.

What happens after you manage to stay strong and finally manage to become better is your ability to take everything that happens afterwards more positively. You always know it can't get worse than what it was and that no matter what medicine of injection you need to take, no matter what surgery you need to go through, it will never be as bad as the one you already underwent. It makes you more resilient against the adversities of life and generally a much more mentally stronger individual. Everything does not look brighter, it just seems more do-able. 

Recovering from Cancer does not mean life becomes more rosy. It doesn't mean that your mother will not scold you or that you won't have fights with your friends, or that you will get more grades or maybe a promotion in office. It simply helps in growing up. Of looking at things in a different light, or like my Principal told me, it helps to 'look at life from a bigger and a wider window'. Perspectives widen and the tolerance level increases. The ability to be more perceptible to others increases and allows you to grow as an individual on different levels.

Personally, I felt I had grown up. I was 17 when detected and 18 when I recovered, but I felt I was 30. Unlike many survivors, my life did not have a 360 degree change. I was not out of my house, changing the world around me or doing something revolutionary and life altering. The change for me happened more on the inside. Suddenly I was disconnected from my friends and a sense of maturity towards a lot of matters seeped in. There was a sense of alienation from all my peers and there was a growing desire to invest my time with people who mattered the most to me. Staying happee and positive became vitally important and I was suddenly more sensitive to others' pains. I was still fighting with my brother, challenging my mother and falling in and out of love, crying over the smallest things and lazying around watching TV. But I was mature and definitely a lot of sensitive.

My point is, Cancer is not a big thing. However, the way we are made to believe it, makes it comes across as something life altering. And that is simply because it is a still a disease that mankind is scared of. Take the darkness out of Cancer and it is just another fever that needs to be treated.

At least that is what my parents made me believe.